Barb Jacobs's Page

I am going to be late with the update tomorrow. Sorry. Not functioning well. No repair manual. barb

Today, I started moving away from that nasty place I had tumbled into a week ago. A lot of very kind people helped me through this time, and I really feel honored to have so many that will stick by me even when I am spewing such negative force fields of muck. ^_^ Molly insisted on giving me money to buy 'stuff'. She wouldnt take it back. Joseph sent MEGA prayers for me and my community, and my daddy gave me beer. Ahem. My ex husband's sister gave me a birthday card which meant a whole lot to me.… Continue

Cedar Rapids flood video I need to blog for a minute because Im starting to get a little overwhelmed. My hometown is completely devastated with a flood. Two friends just emailed- one lost her house, one lost his shop. No flood insurance. No one dreamed this would happen. It was a 500 year flood plain. "Not in OUR lifetime...a different 500th year." We can't use water at all. No showers. No washing clothes, dishes anything. It's a volunt… Continue

Last night I was smacked with that weariness that suddenly comes on - that tiredness that feels like it was injected and you can't override it. I tried really hard to work through it anyway, but in the end I just kept falling asleep everywhere I sat or stood. It was that post-stress tired thing. As I mentioned in another post, it was a rough week for me in terms of facing confrontations: legal issues, landlord meetings, mosh pit violence, shocking news, and two kids who are home all the time, h… Continue

Hey Xyliacs. The last week has been emotionally very draining for me. I had a few things in my personal life that were challenging, but then from out in left field, my refuge from reality, Xylia, brought me some pain too. I know I need to develop a tougher skin. I know this. I know I need to learn to accept myself. As more people read XYila, and more become aware of it, more people are going to want to be critical. Critical of the story, the art, and the site. I'm aware of that, But over the l… Continue